Covering my angst with the soothing wisdom from my mother's prayer journals

Thank God for the Constants


024Our son is now in his mid- forties, and if I picked one word to describe him I would pick consistent. His likes and dislikes don’t change. His behavior doesn’t vary so we know what to expect from him. In that respect he contradicts one of my favorite sayings, “Nothing is permanent but change.”

Because Matt doesn’t vary, it is easier to see the changes all around him.
Since he was five and his grandmother gave him his first radio, radios have been an important part of Matt’s daily schedule. His limited vision makes listening to the stations, as he turns the knobs and pushes the buttons, a help with keeping him occupied. Until recently the ones he likes were easy to come by so I took them for granted.

Last year I realized they were becoming scarce so when I came upon twelve of them at one store, I bought them all. The person who checked me out raised an eyebrow as I swiped my card and carted them to the car.

Arriving home I took them to the closet in Matt’s room and put them into four stacks of three. There was a peace in my soul knowing they were there.

Somehow, we are now down to two. Last week his dad and I visited several stores that had carried them and found one radio which we purchased. Yesterday after Sunday dinner, we drove to two nearby towns and found another radio which we now have. Though not yet panicked, we are alert to the changing market.

Matt has the same type of loyalty to his shoes. They have to be just the right type of white athletic shoe. When he gets a new pair he taps his feet around like a happy dance only he’s sitting down. He got a new pair Saturday and I’m praying they will continue to be manufactured. We should probably stock up on those just in case there is a change.

Before his visits we stock the refrigerator with Matt’s favorites: hot dogs, sausage, chips, oranges, donuts. We keep the sweet tea pitcher full. We take it for granted that those items will be available, but in life nothing is constant, except God’s love and Matt’s expectations.

In her journal Mother wrote, “True joy transcends the rolling waves of circumstances. Joy comes from a consistent relationship with Jesus Christ. (John 15:11) The joy of living with Jesus will keep us level-headed no matter how low or how high our circumstances.”

One of Matt’s favorite songs is The Joy of the Lord is My Strength and when we sing it I’m reminded that our joy depends on knowing that the source of our faith, Jesus Christ, has always been and will always be here for us. Sometimes I take that for granted.

Author: marymcleary

Grateful for so many things, especially the peace He gives and the opportunity to tell it to my kids, grandkids and anyone else who wants to listen. Many read my first book In My Mother's Words, and I have recently published my second book, Heart Whispers from the Old Testament. Both are the result of the prayer journals my mother gifted me her last Christmas. Those journals were full of the wisdom of a Faith Walker and had to be shared.

2 thoughts on “Thank God for the Constants

  1. I too take it for granted. I can’t help but think how much better off this world would be if all of us had the heart of your son Matt. We should be so stubborn for the simple things and unwavering when it comes to the treasure of our Father and so joyous about the things we now take for granted… A good reminder for me. Thanks.


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